~MarTiaL aRtS~

i miss joining for silat training...i wish to join in but i'll feel sad if i can't join for the IVP...i really wanted to compete but my dad wouldn't let me, coz he said it's too risky....but i'm still wondering now, if it's too risky then why did he put me for Taekwondo class since i was 8 years old?

Haiz~~~ Really wanted to join...coz, if i can help bring something or at least i participate for the competition, i can at least show other tertiary level that our campus also have ppl that is making an effort to win something or exist...

Though i only joined Silat in my 2nd year in poly, i'm willing to learn it from the beginning...but when i've reached my 3rd year in poly, i temporarily backed out. It's sad....cause i really have the passion... Some ppl juz don't understand...they'll say things like, " Why do u want to injure urself? Is it worth it?" i know the consequences ok...u dun have to keep repeating those things~~Duh!

I rarely show people my true self...even to my families or close frends...i rather keep it to myself... Coz i like to be full of joy and laughter whenever i'm wif ppl... but when i'm all alone... it's totally different...

Niwaez, have to do my prayers now~~to be continued...

Under the MoonLight @ Ubin Island wif ma fwens~~

Went to Ubin Island

Hey~~~... Back from camp yesterday...really tired but i really had a great time on that island wif all my Engineering mates...it'll be one of my best memories in Nanyang Poly...

Soon after this, i'll get my diploma....go Australia and leave this country... i dun noe how shud i feel right now...i have mix feeling about this...Only Allah knows how i feel...only He understands me... i always wonder why i always make last minute decisions...Shit! Feel like crying now....i'll miss Singapore definitely! Haiz...especially my parents, loved ones, relatives, friends, best buddies, long lost friends.....everything...

I know i have to be strong...i know i have to face up to the challenge....and I will...

I juz hope everything turns out well for me...With God's Will....

I have to change my mindset, and start over new.....~~~ No more playing around... time for seriousness, since i've turned 20 this year.... i should think more like adult... no more fooling around....

I have to be INDEPENDENT!!!!!

Have u ever get confused over things that u don't really need to think about? well, sometimes i wonder why i'm worried about nothing...

ok, i guess i'm truly fickle-minded everytime~~~

Niwae, it's getting late..better get some naps....Nite Peepz!

*Twinkling Star*