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Miss....you

2007-08-28T14:41:00.000+08:00

"It's hard to pretend that u're always happy & bubbly..but deep inside...Crying..Longing to meet my dear family, loved ones and friends...Again...Just wanna say, "I love you" to all that misses me..and i miss them dearly..."

When You're Gone....Emo... :P

2007-08-21T00:53:00.000+08:00

I always needed time on my own

I never thought I'd need you there when I cried

And the days feel like years when I'm alone

And the bed where you lie

Is made up on your side

When you walk away

I count the steps that you take

Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone

The pieces of my heart are missing you

When you're gone

The face I came to know is missing too

When you're gone

All the words I need to hear to always get me through the day

And make it okay

I miss you

I've never felt this way before

Everything that I do

Reminds me of you

And the clothes you left

They lie on the floor

And they smell just like you

I love the things that you do

When you walk away

I count the steps that you take

Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone

The pieces of my heart are missing you

When you're gone

The face I came to know is missing too

When you're gone

All the words I need to hear to always get me through the day

And make it ok

I miss you

We were made for each other

Out here forever

I know we were

Yeah, yeah

And all I ever wanted was for you to know

Everything I do I give my heart and soul

I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me

Yeah

When you're gone

The pieces of my heart are missing you

When you're gone

The face I came to know is missing too

When you're gone

All the words I need to hear will always get me through the day

And make it ok

I miss you

FEVER!

2007-08-03T18:21:00.000+08:00

Ahahaa...i'm not working tonight. Called my manager and told him i have high fever. I think coz it's too cold...Sometimes i like winter...but not when it's freaking cold now...All my fingers turn blue...LoL...

hMM...Chatting with my lil bro, Azizi, now...He said my mum cooks "Asam Pedas"!!! Woahh..my favourite! Wish i could go home... :(

Right now, I have problems...Aiyah, always have problems...Gonna start driving practical soon next week..So slow rite? I'm like 22, and still no driving license...haha...After this, can take boat license...Like real only...

I better take medication again..or else i might get worse...Shall continue soon...

Last semester....Starting sooon

2007-08-03T02:59:00.000+08:00

Red is passion. Love. It represents beauty. Hehehe...I love red!

Anyway, uni will start next week...And i'm soooo dead! Ahaha...coz i'll be taking Thesis. Bob, my ex-classmate/new-roomate, said i'll be slacking big time...hahaha... Well, i shall try my very best for this last semester. Coz I have to.

Hmmm....Working at KMART is sooooooooooo Challenging!!! I like! I'll always do my best to keep it neat and tidy....but it's not fair coz i've noticed that everyone gets the easy job while i get the MOST hardest job of all....I had to cover Bags, Luggage areas, Strollers, Diapers, Infants chair, Infants wear, Boys wear, Girls wear, Milk bottles and accessories, Hats, Mens Undies, Girls bags and etc. That's like a HUGE area. Whereas for others, they only had to cover Ladies wear OR Mens wear, itself. Not fair! :(

Ok, enough of complaining. I miss my late grandparents. My late grandma used to say that my grandpa is soo sweet. Whenever he knows that my grandma is not happy with him, he'll buy her Roti prata or Lontong for breakfast and made her a nice cup of tea. SOOOOOO Sweet rite? I miss her soo much...and him too. Surprisingly, both of them were toooo close. So when grandma passed away, grandpa was so lonely. But shortly after that, he passed away too. I wish I'd have a husband that loves me the way he did. hahahaha..cheeky ah!

Hmmm....i better get some sleep...have to work in KMART tomorrow! Aiyoh...so tiring! Nite2!

It's been a while...

2006-11-21T00:40:00.000+08:00

Wow, i'm in Aussie now? hahaha..ok, lame... I'm suppose to do my assginment rite now...have to finish up my report and give to Jan and Justin to compile...have to prepare for presentation on Thursday..and Friday is our last test for control engineering...And what do u noe? I'll be done by then. Semester 2 will finish this week... Hey, i'm gg back to Singapore, but i'm not telling my friends when is the actual date...Let's make it a surprise...Also, i think i'll be able to celebrate Eidul Adha in Singapore....n i can also go to Malaysia to visit some relatives n friends...yeah!!!

I am soooo thankful to Allah for everything that he has given me...Really, really thankful, Alhamdulillah...I've gone thru so many things, and only Allah knows it all... Without family or close friends...i came here... Allah has been showing me the right path, SubhanAllah...Without His help, i won't be able to find a mosque, which was so close to my Uni...And i've met lots of wonderful people in that masjid...Feel like crying right now... :'( I really hope, that i can be a true good Muslims till the day that i die, insyAllah.

Ok, have to get back to work now....Salamualaikum... May Allah guide us all, Ameen.

Wohooo~~~

2005-05-17T18:57:00.000+08:00

HEY!!!l....went out to orchard yesterday....window shopping wif *ehem*.... Didn't do that much...just walk around....We went in KINOKUNIYA bookstore, and was facinated by the "Star Wars" technology... Then, as we walk towards the road, there were a group of traffic police trying to stop the cars...We saw a few Mercedes passed-by us...i think they were some sort of VIPs...the Mercedes went in towards the hotel lobby...

The day b4 yesterday, me and my sis went to Youth Leadership Seminar (YSL) organised by SAFF-Perdaus. It was superb, man! U guyz should go there....niwae, i had great experience and memories there....Hehehe.....Don't be jealous, k?

So, for now....my organisation(Fityan Ghufran) have to plan for our next journey....towards our goal.....which is ASAP(Anti-Smoking Awareness Programme). We'll be going to one school to the other to gather these youths and pass the message of the dangers of smoking...at the same time, we're guiding them, if they were take it up but wants to quit...so we're like the counsellors....at the same time, we'll be befriending them...

Niwae, i have to do some research now....

eVeNiNg~

YoU DoN'T KnoW wHaT iT's LiKE~~~~

2005-05-10T12:21:00.000+08:00

dO you ever feel like breaking down?
why am i scared? why must i be worried? have to do some soul searching.....haiz
i hope everything runs smoothly.... though i'm sure there's some test of life ahead of me... but, without test i'll be weak...i won't grow strong, rite? i want to be fearless...and i know i can... Wish me luck, ya?

Niwae, i've watched the "Kingdom of Heaven"... i like the idea where they negotiate and gain Win-Win solution....so in the end there wasn't any bloodshed anymore... hehe..watched it with *ehem* again...haiz....sure gonna miss him...

And i noe, my mum will miss me the MOST...haha...coz i usually help her out wif the housework...not that none of my siblings didn't do it, but all my siblings are still schooling...so i usually helps around the house...i'm also gonna miss my sis & bros, parents, grandparents, aunts & uncles, cuzzie, cat, hamsters, fish......u see i have a BIG family, ya noe! hehe......not forgetting...my true friends....haiz...

Well, gotta go....have to fetch my lil bro from sch.....to be continued~~~~

*Twinkling Star*

~~~

2005-05-02T19:52:00.000+08:00

Well, i'm busy with Silat practice lately...so not much time to update my blog...haiz...

My coach suggested i lose some weight...hehe...but how? whenever i'm stressed up, i tend to eat ice-cream and all those sweet stuffs...hehe..Bad habit, rite? Ok2... i'll try to control next time...

Niwae, the Silat practice is VERY TOUGH...no kidding...my coach said i have to work X-TRA hard...coz, we're having our tertiary competition in June....Currently i'm in Class D....but my coach said try to go for Class C...

Last Saturday, when i turned up for the Silat Training, there were students from Singapore Polytechinc too....and boy, they were good... They were physically and mentally fit in terms of training and i heard they were even prepared for the competition...hmm.... i'm sure my team can do it too...heeheee...

Niwae, juz now i've met my *ehem* hehe....it's been a long time, since i joke around with him... Life is short... so i shall treasure all the memories...

Nowadays, i'm too busy until i dun have time for any one.... haiz...Hopefully i have time for myself... OK, I have to teach my lil bro maths...

~Nitez~

*Twinkling Star*

~MarTiaL aRtS~

2005-04-26T14:00:00.000+08:00

i miss joining for silat training...i wish to join in but i'll feel sad if i can't join for the IVP...i really wanted to compete but my dad wouldn't let me, coz he said it's too risky....but i'm still wondering now, if it's too risky then why did he put me for Taekwondo class since i was 8 years old?

Haiz~~~ Really wanted to join...coz, if i can help bring something or at least i participate for the competition, i can at least show other tertiary level that our campus also have ppl that is making an effort to win something or exist...

Though i only joined Silat in my 2nd year in poly, i'm willing to learn it from the beginning...but when i've reached my 3rd year in poly, i temporarily backed out. It's sad....cause i really have the passion... Some ppl juz don't understand...they'll say things like, " Why do u want to injure urself? Is it worth it?" i know the consequences ok...u dun have to keep repeating those things~~Duh!

I rarely show people my true self...even to my families or close frends...i rather keep it to myself... Coz i like to be full of joy and laughter whenever i'm wif ppl... but when i'm all alone... it's totally different...

Niwaez, have to do my prayers now~~to be continued...

2005-04-26T13:17:00.000+08:00

Under the MoonLight @ Ubin Island wif ma fwens~~

Went to Ubin Island

2005-04-26T02:18:00.000+08:00

Hey~~~... Back from camp yesterday...really tired but i really had a great time on that island wif all my Engineering mates...it'll be one of my best memories in Nanyang Poly...

Soon after this, i'll get my diploma....go Australia and leave this country... i dun noe how shud i feel right now...i have mix feeling about this...Only Allah knows how i feel...only He understands me... i always wonder why i always make last minute decisions...Shit! Feel like crying now....i'll miss Singapore definitely! Haiz...especially my parents, loved ones, relatives, friends, best buddies, long lost friends.....everything...

I know i have to be strong...i know i have to face up to the challenge....and I will...

I juz hope everything turns out well for me...With God's Will....

I have to change my mindset, and start over new.....~~~ No more playing around... time for seriousness, since i've turned 20 this year.... i should think more like adult... no more fooling around....

I have to be INDEPENDENT!!!!!

Have u ever get confused over things that u don't really need to think about? well, sometimes i wonder why i'm worried about nothing...

ok, i guess i'm truly fickle-minded everytime~~~

Niwae, it's getting late..better get some naps....Nite Peepz!

*Twinkling Star*

What's wif me?

2005-04-20T22:01:00.000+08:00

Have u ever felt sad suddenly? or feeling down....or feel like giving up....or dilema....
I just don't understand myself....
~Nitez~
*Twinkling Star*

New Exposure~~~

2005-04-19T23:38:00.000+08:00

i'm like so stressed up now... too many things on my mind... can't tell u right now... but i shall explain later...

i had a great start for the day... went to old folks home... it's a good experience for me... really had a lot of fun experiences... I guess I made a new humanitarian job....hehe... Well, it was all good... I should do it more often...

i need to sleep...bye for now...

*Twinkling Star*

A New Begining

2005-04-17T23:54:00.000+08:00

After all the exams....finally i'm creating a blog of my own....haiz... free at last!!! but still dunno wat to do after this...haha...still figuring out my future...~~~

I was talking to my sister when suddenly she was like humming some notes...and the notes seems really familiar to me...so i asked whether the song has some thing to do with this Taiwanese + Japanese drama that i've watched recently....I dunno y suddenly her face changed...Then she started laughing at me....coz she was actually singing BackstreetBoys song....haha....i was so embarrased........~~~so i started laughing at myself too....

After that, went out with my special friend~~~hehe.....watched "Guess Who" starring Ashton Kutcher....He's so CUTE! And the movie was actually kinda hip+romantic+reality check-up+comedy.....All-in-one!

"Percy Jones (Bernie Mac) is taking no chances with his daughter Theresa's (Zoe Saldana) future. Even before he meets Simon Green, her latest boyfriend, Percy has him checked out. On paper, he passes with flying colors -- great job, good investments and a promising future. But there's one thing the credit report didn't tell him: Simon Green (Ashton Kutcher) is white. Not that there's anything wrong with that. Unless, of course, Simon wants to marry his daughter. Which he does. "

It's an hour and 37 mins comedy movie....so it's kinda short but sweet....Anywayz, gotta sleep now.. have to hand-in my report tomorrow morning and my dad is gonna send me to campus...well, he always sends me to school everyday....coz i haven't completed my final driving theory test...oh well, i guess i'll get it soon after all things are settled....
Nitez~
*Twinkling StaR*

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Miss....you

When You're Gone....Emo... :P

FEVER!

Last semester....Starting sooon

It's been a while...

Wohooo~~~

YoU DoN'T KnoW wHaT iT's LiKE~~~~

~~~

~MarTiaL aRtS~

Went to Ubin Island

What's wif me?

New Exposure~~~

A New Begining

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